Hello?

Ever since I realized what God has been calling me to do, I’ve been such an emotional wreck. I don’t WANT to go in a time machine back to the past. I don’t want to deal with any of that crap! But at the same time, I know it’s something I really need to do. Thinking about what I need to say reminds me of everything I’ve been trying to forget. I found myself making a whole bunch of excuses to avoid it this whole week… I don’t HAVE to do it, right? Can’t I just leave things as it is.. I could sure use my courage and strength right now…